I wrote a post with this same title after the last time I volunteered for Bhava Spandana, while the experience was still fresh in body, mind, emotions, and energies.
This time I’m writing just before I go to the ashram, just before the experience begins. I find my mind and ego spinning around:
- Am I ready?
- What will this volunteer group be like? The last group was so awesome!
- What will the participants be like? They were very intense last time, as the program was extended for COVID restrictions
Volunteering can be a powerful practice of karma yoga, especially as it’s done in this place. We work 18 hours a day or more, with great intensity. Tasks are continually varying. Clarity and routine are scarce. “What should I do?” is not an appropriate question; we must be present and conscious where we are, and simply do what’s needed. It’s a very direct way to let your ego’s desires and needs fall away.
I admit that I am accustomed to controlling my daily life. My home is stable, my routine is stable, my daily job tasks are under my control, my yoga routine is in my hands. But here at the ashram little will be under my control. Everyone will me my boss. I will do whatever anyone asks. I will control only my emotions, consciously choosing joy and laughter. I will not control the tears, they will flow daily.
Have you ever volunteered like this? Total willingness, following all orders, no job too small or menial. I am sure opportunities to do this exist in and around your life. If you haven’t had the experience you may be surprised at what happens when you drop your ego’s self-importance and need to control.